the shepherd's dog
Brody comes slinking back eventually.

Of course he does; where else would he go? He could get his own place, it's not hard, he's done it before... but he's not equipped to live by himself. Last time, it drove him crazy. He's not equipped to do anything, lately, he vacillates between locking himself in his room for days or disappearing outside, where he comes back looking dazed and sick. He's not getting any better, he's getting worse.

He doesn't have his key -- dropped it somewhere in Brooklyn, probably down a storm drain by now -- but that doesn't make getting in difficult, not when he's perfectly capable of scaling the walls and crawling in through the bathroom window. That should be too small for him to fit through, except for the fact that now he can fit anywhere his head fits into.

It's just not any fun to watch. Or do.

He comes back around to open the front door and bring the dog up, then shuts the door quietly behind them. Nothing in his hands, he didn't take anything with him and he doesn't bring anything back. He smells a little bit like carrion, indicating he probably ate at least once, but that's all. Maybe it's just from the dog.
 
 
 
 
the shepherd's dog
After two hours of wandering around downtown LA at night, it occurs to Brody that he has nowhere else to go.

He left his money and valuables -- a plastic shopping bag full of expensive leather wallets, watches, rings, cufflinks, and cash, some of it blood-stained -- in his room. He could hustle for the money for a place but he really doesn't feel like it, hasn't felt like it in a long time. He could kill for it, but he isn't hungry, there's no guarantee whoever he picks will be carrying cash, and anyway he doesn't feel like putting in enough effort to get rid of the body. There's no one he knows well enough in New York to crash with, not considering his situation. There's definitely no one in LA. He can't spend the night on the street and he doesn't want to go hang out in the sewers again. It's disgusting and it stinks.

He comes slinking back to the Room instead, relieved that Harvestman isn't there anymore. He doesn't want to talk to him right now. He knows he's being unreasonable, but it bothers him that all of a sudden he's treating him like a child when he's been expected to be an adult for the past year, and it upsets him that it's taken him a year to get around to caring enough to bring it up. Then why do you insist on doing it by yourself? He felt like screaming, still feels like screaming. Because I've fucking had to.

But talking makes it worse. He can scream it until he's blue in the face -- not that that can happen anymore -- and it won't change anything. It won't help. It won't make him feel any better.

It takes him a long time to knock on Lucas' door, clutching a jar full of dirt with his creepy dead dog sitting at his feet. He's been wearing the same clothes for weeks.
 
 
 
 
the shepherd's dog
20 December 2011 @ 01:35 pm
 
Christmas passes quietly and unobtrusively -- in spite of the great fuss Brody puts up a few days before when he scrambles to find gifts for every single person that he knows, which, given that he evidently knows the entire universe and then some, is quite an undertaking. He ends up stressed and upset and worrying about everything, but he can't just ignore it like he wants to because he can't bear the thought of anyone feeling forgotten or left out. It's not about getting stuff, it's about being thought of. He was too sick to do this last year and the guilt has obviously been eating at him. His gift to Harvestman is something practical and thoughtful, not sentimental, knowing that neither of them wants to own anything they couldn't stand to lose.

Otherwise, nothing happens. He doesn't even mention it. Neither does he go outside, actually, he doesn't want to hear about it, or see people celebrating, or be told "happy holidays" as if that's possible. He's dead; they have no idea.

Still, it's kind of nice to be thought of as some normal kid. Someone's cared for teenager.

He finally relaxes when it's over, like he's endured some kind of trial and passed. Afterwards it's just a waiting game until the new year -- which he spends gone, he doesn't come back until the second, bleary-eyed and still drunk -- and he still hasn't slept by the time they've taken their few paltry belongings out of the motel room and to the apartment in downtown LA he found for them. The landlady looks extremely dubious of Brody's prior claim that they're related when she actually sees Harvestman, but hopefully they won't have to see her more than the once.

The place isn't bad at all. Not the kind of shitholes they're used to, but neither is it some luxury apartment, not even quite middle-class. It's intact, the ceiling isn't covered in cracks and waterstains, and the beige milquetoast carpeting only has a couple small stains. They could probably afford better but Brody is afraid to go anywhere too expensive -- he's never sure if Harvestman is going to decide he doesn't want to work anymore.

The dog has been warming up to them. Brody does not mention that he's been feeding it his vitae, because even he feels the slight shiver of guilt over that -- but dead animals are dangerous without a blood-bond, they don't know how to survive with the bloodlust inside of them, and without someone looking after them, they die within a few weeks. Gets blamed on rabies. He just wants to take care of something, anyway. Sometimes when he's tuckered it out, though, the dog will come and lie down on the foot of Harvestman's bed and sigh and pretend to nap.

There are two bedrooms and no furniture, which is going to be a problem since neither of them has any. "Which one do you want?" he asks. They're about the same size but the master bedroom has a private attached bathroom and a slightly bigger closet.
 
 
the shepherd's dog
18 October 2011 @ 01:32 am
When they're out of sight of the rest of the Room, Brody bites down in earnest with the flat, blunt teeth in between his fangs -- not to hurt, just to leave a little mark. He waits a few seconds before releasing and repeating it a little to the left.

He keeps one arm around his neck but lowers the other, his hand running down his chest as far as he can reach, trying to hold relatively still; he knows Lucas still doesn't eat as much as he should and is a little concerned about being dropped on his ass. Being picked up and carried around is usually pretty annoying for him -- people do it a lot, he's tiny -- but he doesn't mind it when it's Lucas. If that's because he just likes him, or because he doesn't do it to make fun of him or rub it in his face, he's not sure.

"Missed you," he murmurs. It's hard for him to find excuses to not go to the Room every day, because doing so makes him feel a little pathetic.